Oh my god, look at him… he’s all cute and little and furry and scruffy and
tan! I think he works in landscaping… his pants show some worked in grass
stains. Or maybe he just likes to wrestle… *drool. #snap

Today is a hot and muggy day, but at least I get to wear shorts. I’m taking
my respite group to the park for a trail walk down at Lossen Park. I like my
legs, and can’t wait to get them ready for the serious hiking Jay and I have
planned for the Summer. I’m also in love with my new hiking boots from
Vasque… support and comfortability with vented uppers so my poor flat feet
can breathe. They feel great and look sweet. I’d do me, from the waist down
at least. #snap.

The month of May has been a time of change for me, and I suppose its time to let you in on some of the things that have been going on.

First of all, I’m sure its apparent by now that I’m no longer dating John, AKA Scranto. The choice was hard to make, but it was the right thing to do. I uncovered and embraced a part of my life that till recently didn’t make any sense. I’m polyamorous, and that pretty much means that you don’t limit your emotional connections to one partner. For some, being poly means you can have multiple relationships, maybe a triad or a few separate lovers. The difference that makes it not so slutty is that there is openness and communication across the board. For me, being poly means that I don’t have to be afraid to express my care and love for my closest friends, mentors, “daddies,” and I don’t have to hide it from my partner. I don’t wanna date 3 guys, I can’t handle it, I just don’t want to have to hide how I feel for someone and ensure my partner knows I love him just the same.

For a month, I’ve been discovering this about myself, figuring out what to do, how to make this work in the current situation, but I couldn’t. The choice I made was to break up with John, start fresh, and start growing up in 2009. It was tough, it hurt, but I feel 100% about the path that I’m on today.

Fast forward to now. When I refer to “the boyfriend,” I’m referring to Jay (see above in 8bit). He’s sorta the catalyst for it all. Its hard to explain, but for a time I thought I could date John and Jay, and keep it all perfect. That wasn’t going to work, but I took my time with Jay and he is the best partner for me as I walk down this path. I  love this guy, he keeps bringing out the best in me, and anyone that can put up with me deserves a fucking medal.

How did I meet Jay? Eh, its complicated (involves twitter, being thrown up against a wall, grumpybear, Forest Lawn, Westboro Church, a trip to Darien Lake, and a month long case of blue balls)… but it wouldn’t be my life if it wasn’t. I’m happy, real happy.

P.S. – It’s now totally cool to date someone you meet on twitter.

I’m an absolute sucker for rough looking, tattooed, pierced, furry mother
fuckers… but since
I like a boy I can take to meet the Family, my lovers are a tad bit more
conservative. However, I can drool can’t I? #snap

After a weighted tabulation from blog comments and friendly opinions,
cleanshaven Nate will stick around for a while. Personally, I don’t find
myself attractive anymore. Popular opinion assures me my face is still my
"meal ticket," but I’m gonna have to spend some serious time staring into
the mirror to fall in love with my face again. Oh, the woes of a
narcissist.

In the mean time, help me find a decent ‘lectric razor to keep the scruff at
bay. I don’t trust a straight blade in my hands anywhere near my face.

PS – The real reason I shaved was that Jay wanted to see it. It doesn’t
matter what others think, or even what I think… you wanna look hot for the
man you love right? Right. #snap

I never quite got Ze Frank… all I know is that he’s an internet man that gets it. his humor is blatant, thought provoking, and most of the time completely absurd. This video is no exception….

Check out the rest of Ze Franks HardTimes videos on Vimeo in glorious HD.

It seems that even though this is the giant summer kickoff, Darien Lake,
well the theme park at least, is pretty dead. The most interesting thing
going on right now is this little fountain… total spectator sport. Just
how I like it. #snap

A wee bit of rain pulled us all out again, and now the fire is strong and
blue. Its like, nearly 5am, and the birds are starting to chirp. Its really
nice out… I forgot how much I loved making campfires…

**this just in!! Some guy a few lots down from us just fell into their
grill… the sound was deafening. And I bet he feels like an ass. #snap**

Ya know, the last time I was at Darien Lake camping, it was over 10 years
ago, and I was growing up in Goldsboro, NC. We drove all the way up here for
a christian revival conference… like Kingdom Bound I guess.

This time, I’m with two redneck homos (Billy and Chuck) and Jay. We’re
"camping…" meaning we have power and stuff, but tons of fun nonetheless.
#snap

I’ve had a beard for about 6 months or so (maybe more), but it was time for a change… which is pretty appropriate for what’s been going on lately. I really like having a beard, but I’ve been meaning to see what my chin looks like, let it breathe and decide what I want to do next. Maybe I’ll keep it, maybe I’ll grow the beard back… let loose your opinion on the blog comments… #snap Thanks!